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Jun. 6th, 2006

10:22 pm - meh.

It's been quite a day.. it has. Woke up... mom in horrible mood. Great.. Need to find fastest way out of house. Luckily, Raina called(perfect timing), came to my rescue. We hung out all day. Went to Los Cuatro(Yes!!!!! Finally! lol), did some shopping, and tried to bring her old car over to her house(no luck:-(). then I finally came home. Got my financial aid from CMU, they want to give me 8 grand for this semester.... I swear the older ya get, the more money they want to give ya, ha. Anyway, I start back at GM on Monday and could not be happier. I love my car so much!!! It makes me smile everytime I get in it. Last weekend I went up to Mt P and visited with my shnook for the weekend. We laid by the pool ... i don't look so white anymore, and i'm not so red either... although my body despises the sun, it went easy on me as i lathered on the SPF 30 and somehow still managed to get some color. Thinking about doing the Crim again this year... I'm starting back running again tomorrow... I can't stand not working out, everything goes to heck when I don't and I can't eat the way i do unless i'm running. Since I'm not starting work til next monday I think I am going to head up to Mt P and see my Marco:-p I miss him. Speaking of lazy asses.... alysse just came home and said... "do you mind if i park on the pavement from now on... i'm pretty sure i've earned it, you don't deserve to park on the pavement, i live here full time and you don't"! Wow....! i love my family, so glad to be home for the summer. ha. You can't walk an extra 50 feet to your car just cuz i got home before you did. Sure princess, I'd be glad to... it's called KISS MY ASS spoiled princess. So... i've tried this thing lately where I don't complain.... because I realize, I do that quite often... but today.. rrrrrrrrr... my nerves were just quite erked. Today I realized some things ya know... it's like I want things so badly to be the way they once were, I think back on things and some things that I really miss... it's just like ex-bfs ya know... you miss them... cuz you only remember the good things... then you remember how horrible things were in the end and all of the hurtful things they did... this has nothing to do with ex-bfs, but just the fact that ya know... i guess I understand that know matter how forgiving I want to be sometimes... forgive and forget doesn't always work, and no matter how badly you want to give in because you remember the way things once were, they will never be the same, and you won't settle for anything less. I guess that's why I can't build a bridge and get over it, I'd rather just keep you in the past...

Anyway, that's all for now... no more complaints! Ahh... can't wait for my pool to be open and to go blueberry picking!!!!!!!!

Current Location: My Pimped Out New Room with lots of pics of friends!

Current Mood: meh.

Current Music: Swing Life Away--Rise Against

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May. 17th, 2006

09:23 pm - It's been awhile...

It's been awhile since I've written.... a lot has happened... but i guess i am only writing about the current things in my life since I feel no need to express the others. Today was lance's dad's funeral/memorial service. Besides Tim's, I'd have to say it was the hardest one I have ever sat through. I had to bite my tongue, even my mom was crying. My dad even had tears in his eyes and my uncle rustie was crying. He was way, way too young to die. He was only 56. To see Lance with tears in his eyes choked me up so much. All I can think of is losing my own father, he is only 50... and lance's dad was a lot healthier than my own... things work so mysteriously. He was like brianna's father too, brianna has been in there family half as long as she has been in her own. Plus Jumana just lost her father a year ago...When the priest went on to say that he had learned so much from the daughter he never had(brianna)... I know that must have meant a lot to her. They played Imagine by Mercy Me and When you say nothing at all, by allison krauss... two quite appropriate songs... Imagine is such a powerful song... and When you say nothing at all reminded me of being at tim's memorial service all over again... it just reminds me of how you never forget... and at least now I know that Dick is no longer suffering... his pain has been taken away... and he is now healed and happy... may he rest in peace.

Current Mood: melancholy

Current Music: When you say nothing at all--Allison Krauss

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Apr. 2nd, 2006

Feb. 8th, 2006

06:07 pm - Some Lyrics to Think About.

"Swing Life Away"

Am I loud and clear, or am I breaking up?
Am I still your charm, or am I just bad luck?
Are we getting closer, or are we just getting more lost?

I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand

I've been here so long, I think that it's time to move
The winter's so cold, summer's over too soon
Let's pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow

I've got some friends, some that I hardly know
But we've had some times, I wouldn't trade for the world
We chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand....until you hold my hand

I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand



When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears streaming, down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears streaming down your face
And I..

Tears streaming, down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears streaming down your face
And I..

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.


Well, I walk into the room
Passing out hundred dollar bills
And it kills and it thrills like the horns on my Silverado grill
And I buy the bar a double round of crown
And everybody's getting down
An' this town ain't never gonna be the same.

(Chorus:)
Cause I saddle up my horse
and I ride into the city
I make a lot of noise
Cause the girls
They are so pretty
Riding up and down Broadway
on my old stud Leroy
And the girls say
Save a horse, ride a cowboy.
Everybody says
Save a horse, Ride a cowboy

Well I don't give a dang about nothing
I'm singing and Bling- Blanging
While the girls are drinking
Long necks down!
And I wouldn't trade ol' Leroy
or my Chevrolet for your Escalade
Or your freak parade
I'm the only John Wayne left in this town

And I saddle up my horse
and I ride into the city
I make a lot of noise
Cause the girls
They are so pretty
Riding up and down Broadway
on my old stud Leroy
And the girls say
Save a horse, ride a cowboy.
Everybody says
Save a horse, Ride a cowboy



(Spoken:)
I'm a thourough-bred
that's what she said
in the back of my truck bed
As I was gettin' buzzed on suds
Out on some back country road.
We where flying high
Fining, whine, having ourselves a big and rich time
And I was going, just about as far as she'd let me go.
But her evaluation
of my cowboy reputation
Had me begging for slavation
all night long
So I took her out giggin frogs
Introduced her to my old bird dog
And sang her every Wilie Nelson song I could think of

And we made love
And I saddled up my horse
and I ride into the city
I make a lot of noise
Cause the girls
They are so pretty
Riding up and down Broadway
on my old stud Leroy
And the girls say
Save a horse, ride a cowboy.
Everybody says
Save a horse, Ride a cowboy

What? What?
Save A Horse Ride A Cowboy
Everybody says
Save a Horse Ride a cowboy.

Uh huh yeah
Yeah hah
Oh man I got a sweet tooth, can you dig it
After this one you gunna need a root canal
Hehe
I love sugar, oh man
This one for all the nice, clean, decent women
Lay it on me girl
Pay close attention

[Chorus - Cee-Lo]
She put that sugar, (oooh) on my tongue (oooh)
Shes gonna, (oooh) gimme gimme some (oooh)
She put it right there on my tongue (sweet sweet, lover lover)
Ohh she put it right there on my tongue (she turns me on, like no other)

[Trick Daddy]
Gimme some of your butter pecan
And put it right there, on the tip of my tongue
Hold it, right chyea, cause baby, if I bite ya I bet ya like it!
French Vanilla is a helluva flava for me with
Strawberries two cherries and whipped cream
The best dreams are the wet dreams
The rest is just a flick without a sex scene
Orderely I speak the truth
Cause the blacker the berry, the sweeter the juice
Cuz Florida oranges and Georgia peaches
When they nice and ripe they the best for eatin
All southern boys be cravin for pores
an old slice of pie after they main course
What they game for, I came for
I gotta thang for you that I came for

[Chorus 2x]

[Ludacris]
She put that sugar on my tongue tongue
Yippie yippie yum yum
Goodie goodie gum drop, put me in a tongue lock
did it til my body went numb numb
laid her on her back back
turn around gave her bottom a smack smack
shes the woman from the block with the best of weave
but I wont stop til im pullin out tracks tracks
it was lust at first sight
and she couldn't help sayin that she wanted to get with me
and my size was just right
plus she wanted a man with a little security
said I been around the world twice
and my name ring bells from Atlanta to sicily
cause she wanted it all night
put the bubbles in the tub and ludacris and me


[Lil' Kim]
He lickin his lips like im somethin sweet
Lookin at me like im somethin to eat
I got pimps given me they money
Just to taste my jar of honey
Cotton candy sweet as gold
Come & lick my tootsie roll
My sugar baby once u ready
I give ya high blood pressure like a diabetic
How about a lil kim witcha coffee
I jus cant keep these boys off me
Pink diamonds dudes love to frost me
Runnin behind me like im mista softy
They said i drive em crazy,
Got a sweet tooth for ya baby
Lil' kim look atcha lady
Lil' kim's our candy baby

That'd be about it for now.

Current Mood: Feeling good.

Current Music: Anything Deftones.

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Jan. 18th, 2006

05:58 pm - eeew.

Well... I haven't updated in awhile... it's cool. I will get around to it. Lance and Brianna are driving up tonight from Indy and staying with me!!! Yeahhhhhh! I am excited. I bought stuff to make breakfast in the morning. I have not missed a day at the gym in 3 weeks... that takes dedication baby. Anyway, I am in the lab before class and just thought of something that grosses me out. You go the computer lab to use a computer, and you go to sit down and the seat is already warm, and you have no clue who was sitting it before you... weird!? Anyway, I don't have OCD so I sit down anyway. lol. Off to class and eat my Jimmy John's... yummmmmmmm... ah! I love that place. Gimme a #6 please! Later.

Current Mood: hungry

Current Music: Fine Again---Seether

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Dec. 25th, 2005

11:48 pm - Merry Christmas

I had a great holiday with my fam.... there were actually no fights. Bri, Weez and I went and saw Rumor Has it... it was good. I haven't updated in quite sometime. I kicked ass in my classes this semester. I got one B damnit.... that stupid HR class.. oh well I thought I was going to fail it. Grades are as stands:
MGT 320 B
MGT 348 A
PHL 318 A-
SPN 335 A
BIS 360 A-

Ohh i was soo close to that 4.0... oh well I really am aiming for it this semester. I'm so sad to be taking my last spanish class of my undergraduate career this semester. Anyway, what was i going to say? Oh yeah... possibly going to go see Deftones with Michael in March.. how exciting is that!? I just have to make sure nothing major for Alpha Chi is going on, like Initiation... oh yes, my lil' is taking a lil'.. how freaking exciting!!!!!!!!! Oh... new discovery of a band, actually a one man band.. The Rocket Summer.. rocks my world. Anyway.. what else? Oh yes! Meeting greggie for lunch tomorrow, how exciting. Got to see Gage, Amber and Mikey, Mike was so sick, I felt bad... he's grown so much. Speaking of growing, I saw a picture of Gavin, oh my golly has he grown! What else what else? Oh yeah... the sister's and I went to Jester's haha... just for some fun, watched some band play... they kicked ass.. played some good Nirvana. But my real sister's and I went and saw that movie tonight... brianna told the saddest story.. this guy that works on the radio... he lives out of state away from his family and his brother e-mailed him this e-mail saying he should come home and visit the fam cuz they miss him... and that life is a funny thing and his brother that e-mailed him went on to tell a story that a dear friend of his had something happen. His friend, just got a big promotion at work and is engaged to a beautiful woman, she is an athletic trainer. He went out with his coworkers to celebrate and told his fiancee if she wanted to stop by the bar she was more than welcome. He had had quite a few to drink so he took a cab home not realizing he'd locked his house keys in his car, he called his fiancee and told her that he was soo sorry to interrupt her at work but he'd forgotten his keys and could she please come let him in the house. So an hour passes.. the woman doesn't show... he calls her and leaves her a voicemail "Honey, I'm concerned, where are you? It is freezing outside"... he calls and calls... he finally leaves her a voicemail that says "Where the hell are you I am freezing cold my hands are about to fall off"... come to find out... the fiancee never makes it home. A police officer shows up at his household the next morning to tell him that his fiancee was hit by a drunk driver on her way home to give him the keys, and they found him froze to death on his lawn... wow. How horrible... and this reminded me that when lance was over tonight.. he said "We are all dying, some just faster than others". Then my sisters and I on the way home listened to this sad song... and we were all balling our eyes out.. it was great.. lol anyway... dl it if you can... it is called Goodbye My Lover by James Blunt... It applies to more than lovers, it could be anyone special in your life. Especially the end part... I'm so hollow.

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

Current Mood: tired

Current Music: James Blunt Goodbye My Lover

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Dec. 17th, 2005

Nov. 25th, 2005

Nov. 21st, 2005

07:35 pm - Things lately...

So... I've had some good times lately. Haven't had a computer though unfortunately so I couldn't write. Last weekend I went home and Eric and I went and watched Fossick play... it was awesome. I felt so bad for Rain though, she is such a champ. She got in the middle of the nice mosh that was going on and broke her nose. I can't wait to hang with her over Christmas break, I miss her so much! I hope we get to work together at GM again this summer, especially since I will be living in the house next year! That's right baby, you can find me at 916 Main. Eric and I had a good time. He has lost so much weight it is ridiculous! Then I stopped for John's birthday on the way home and got to see Keri and her woman, Ian, Unc, and Andy Goss. I ended up taking John home and he threw up on the way, luckily not in my car. lol. Bridg got him a cute pink shirt and a nice pair of jeans for his birthday. He needed those though so that was nice of her. I also took Ben to therapy, it was sweet. I enjoyed spending time with him. We went to Boston Market afterward and got some eats. It was pretty good. He got up and used walking canes while I was there, I was the first one to see him do this, it was so exciting, I was so proud of him. He also let me see his hospital bills, all of them, wow. It was so freaking expensive. like well over a 1/4 million and there are still bills coming. Thank God his father works for GM. This weekend when I go home for Thanksgiving Eric and I are going to go see Get Rich or Die Tryin'. I have been wanting to go and see this freaking movie for soooo long, and now, I finally get to. Eric is the only person I know that was like YEAH YEAH YEAH! Lets go see it! lol. After I go home for Thanksgiving, I will come back on Monday, and then have to be back home Thursday by 6 cuz I have Cody's Court of Honor to go to. So my computer died finally. luckily linds is a kick ass roommate and is letting me use hers, and her dad is awesome to and is giving me a new computer. I'm trying to remember what else I did that weekend, but it is all a blur. Oh yes! Alysse and I went shopping and I got a couple new shirts. Oh yes! She also dyed and cut my hair for me(see picture below). I love it. It is the color I have wanted it forever. It was great, after Fossick got done playing Zack the drummer walked up to me and was like "aren't you raina's friend from this summer?" and i told him "yeah" and he said "Wow. you dyed your hair, and it is freakin' hott, oh my gosh, it is awesome." Unfortunately though he is 28 and has a kid, oh! and a girlfriend. Although he is hott, he's still a loser, but it was still a confidence booster. I had such a CRAZY weekend this weekend also, it was ridiculous, but fun, hehe. Lets see... what did I do on Thursday? Oh yes! Jorge and Linds and I all went to Da 'Bin to get some pizza and cabin sticks, good times, good times. Then I went and gave Mo her book and we looked at it together. Then on Friday Mo and I went and ate at La's... yes, it was a weekend full of eating out, which I don't want to do again for a long long time. It was fun, we went in our ugly letters and we got some spinach and mushroom quesadillas, yum. yum. Then we went to Initiation Retreat, yes, more good times. Doing skits was HILARIOUS!!! The new mems was good. Then I woke up at 6:30 Saturday morning and picked up Mo and Liz and we were on our way to initiation. It was good times. Laura and Alli were there. IT was quite the moose family get together. Initiation went smoothly even though it was game day. The State Alpha Chis were SOOOOO nice. There house is sooo amazing, I'd love to be an advisor some day. Then the Moose Fam went to Bennigan's and it was delish. Liz got mo, her, and I all matching shirts. Mo, made me a symphony and it is beautiful, I cried so hard, no one has ever made me a symphony. I'm sooo happy to have someone I am closer with in Alpha Chi. I have to start thinking of a creative dress for Semi-Formal, the theme is 80s prom and we are going to have a prom queen and king... how fun. Which reminds me that the letters I wore to Initiation Retreat were horrible, lol. it was fun. Anyway, then I came home and went to see HP with the dolphin and fish family... I was the only moose, hey it's cool. It was a good movie, but I didn't like it as much as the others. Then on Sunday Linds and I met Greg in Saginaw and we got some Los Cuatro Amigos. It has been a long time since I got to see greggie, so it was good to hang out with him. Although I am sure it was torture with us dragging him through all the girlie stores while trying on clothes. Oh yes!! When I was in East Lansing for initiation I stepped into Urban Outfitters for the first time in my life, it was awesome. Anyway, I better get going, gotta finish up my stuff for class. Once I am able to load my pictures on the computer, I will put the newest moose fam pics up.





P.s. those pictures from before are when Dan and Dan and I all went to the bar and it was raining ridiculously outside, it was good times on the way home from the bar, lol.

Current Mood: tired

Current Music: The New Mariah Carey Song

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Nov. 10th, 2005

Oct. 30th, 2005

07:19 pm - Random Cool Thought.

I saw an old man at the gym with an ipod, he was probably almost 70. Those old boogers, how cool is that! Getting *PumpeD* for Nightmare on Main tomorrow :-D

Current Mood: chipper

Current Music: Anything All American Rejects

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Oct. 27th, 2005

Oct. 10th, 2005